Growing Pains…I Can’t Write Today

I am not sure if my mind is used to Thursdays as my cleaning and shopping day (if you want to call my pathetic domestic skills ‘cleaning’). It could be the project I’m working on, I can’t find my groove lately. It is a monster I wasn’t prepared to take on. A journey of a thousand miles, right?

I get that. I foresee myself using this project taking longer, maybe a year. I’m sure that’s okay. I didn’t have a set deadline and it’s not in my genre. If I take the pressure off myself I will most likely be able to get it done.

I think my brain has a schedule of the week set and knows that it’s supposed to relax today. I’m not supposed to write or market today. Maybe catching up on research will help. As long as I don’t look up analytics and pixels (we all know how I despise that stuff) I should be okay.

If something isn’t working at the moment, the best thing is to drop it for a while. Why force a circle into a square, right? 

Notice all the cliches I’m using…I have no business writing at all on a Thursday. I hope your creative juices are flowing better than mine (yes, exactly…I’ll stop while I’m behind).

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Growing Pains…Growing the Business

EVERY blog and YouTube video tells me it’s super simple. Well, none of these people have met me. I added it to the page after my site heading, before the site heading, after the slash, before the colon, after my name, everywhere imaginable. Guess what gurus..it’s not super simple.

I lift up my laptop and walk over to the window…I open the window, the cool air hits me in the face. I calm down and realize throwing my laptop down three stories will not place the pixels in the HTML correctly. I place the laptop on the table and make a cup of coffee.

I want to create a raffle of some sort in the near future but guess what? They want me to embed code to the site. Oh well, I guess I’m not setting this up this week.

I can’t afford to hire a techie. I am going to have to bother my techie neighbor again. I hope he can just add all the techie code all over the place. I’ll buy him a few drinks for his trouble.

Thank goodness he loves this kind of stuff because if I didn’t have friends and family in the business, I would have no money from hiring someone to do all of this.

I am still on a high from all the great milestones lately so this won’t get me down. It is just a step back I can overcome. The road of a newbie is never without a pothole or two.

Growing Pains…Hitting Milestones

A publishing company has contacted me to take a look at my next work? They want to read my next manuscript? I am not sure how much of a milestone this is, it feels good to see that people are noticing, even if it’s to take my money. Thanks, but no thanks.

Now, I have the book in an ad for a day or two. I am giving it out for free….HOLY CANNOLI! A thousand downloads? You have to be kidding me. This thing is on fire. Granted, I never entered a contact page to the back of my e-book, therefore I messed up getting an e-mail list and potential reviews, but it’s still a great feeling.

This brings me to my next milestone. As a result of my crazy downloads in one day, I was rated #5 in my genre for a minute. Maybe an hour. I was rated #9 in another genre at the same time. I was on Amazon less than a month and I was top ten long enough for another happy dance.

Mansion with a heated indoor pool here I come!

Yeah, right! Well, now my other milestones that have been coming in slowly. I hit my first 100 contacts on my readers’ list. I only had four for so long but when I learned the right way to do it, 100 came fairly quick. Then, I passed 150. I’m between that and 200 right now. I plan on having 200 by next week.
My first volunteer for the ‘Forbidden’ advanced team is my next milestone. I received an email the other day. I am extremely excited to announce I have ONE person that requested to be a beta tester. Thank you! She is not my cousin from Long Island by the way. A complete stranger read a book of mine and wanted to be part of MY TEAM. 

As a newbie this stuff will never get old. I can’t imagine it EVER getting old. How could anyone get complacent in this business? The mere fact that others accept you and love what you write is one of the best feelings ever. 

Growing Pains…The Proper Mentor

I ask various questions on my FB groups and on Twitter. On occasion I will comment or ask a question. Listen, nobody knows you right now, you’re safer online than in person. I am outgoing in person but really shy online…I have no idea why. I’m weird like that.

I can write this blog and publish a bunch of books but it takes me REAL STRENGTH to get the kahunas to ask advice on one of these writer’s groups. Let alone make a real connection for a mentor. Ridiculous but true.

We have to take it slow, find our people (authors in our genre) and make it a point to ask questions, comment on posts, like a post here and there. Even if your comment is ‘congratulations’ or ‘great job’ that’s a start. 

When you find yourself in a rut while trying to do something and you need help, instead of wasting three hours on the internet Googling ‘how-to’.. just go on a writer’s group and ask. If you think of something while writing your story, jot it down for later. When you are on your schedule for social media, then ask.

Growing Pains…Never Second Guess Because of Others

I reread this and rework it at times, but not to the degree I work on my novelettes. My stories have feeling and drama. My series is not the editor’s style, she could have just said that. Maybe I am a little too sensitive about my writing, I don’t know. I need the criticism and I need to grow. I need the honest opinions. Maybe I know it but can’t handle it. Maybe the short answer with little explanation is why I’m second guessing my abilities.

I will go with another editor that agreed to work with me and they will give me feedback. I will take their expert advice and become a better writer. I need to work on my writing. I know this, all new authors need to improve. I am guessing I will need to improve when I am in the business fifteen years from now (not sure, I’ll tell you in fifteen years).

One reason why I decided to start this website was to help me improve my skills. I felt writing a little bit each week would get me there quicker. I write my stories every day, yes, but sometimes not setting up an outline or scenes (I just started this phase for my stories) can help too. Rereading and seeing a little bit on a page without going back right away will teach me I can just write until my thoughts are complete.

One day this will be something that might free my writing and get my word count up. It might bring my confidence up one day. I had a mini setback and that’s okay. I realize I am not Shakespeare.

I am more of an Edgar Alan Poe, crazy stories with little consideration for spelling (not true but you get the idea). As a matter of fact, Poe used to drive me crazy with his lack of spelling skills. The greatest of writers back in the day had no editors, no publishing companies and look at how we cherish their classics.

Growing Pains…Prioritizing

My favorite advice I did hear so far has been ‘You’re going to be a terrible author in the beginning, and that’s okay. We all were.’ I stick to that because it helps me get on with my growth. I have made so many mistakes. I don’t know what I’m doing half the time. 

I know they have failed time and time again to get to where they are, I am no different and neither is the next guy/girl. Okay, JK Rowling is a beast. She might be different.

I understand it has been a long time since many of these experts have felt what us newbies have been through. Sometimes people forget the frustrations and the impatience. 

I am in a few writing groups and I read the irritations of other writers that have a thousand plus in their email lists and I think to myself ‘am I good enough to be in this group?’

Growing Pains…When It Seems EVERYTHING Goes Wrong At Once

I know this title is an exaggeration, but we all feel like this at one point or another. I will tell my story and then give some type of motivational speech for those who are in my shoes. I am not sure if the speech will be for my benefit or yours, maybe a little for both of us.

Okay, most of my issues aren’t really that bad but when you put them all together I want to rip my hair out (not really, maybe just a strong cup of coffee and a nap). 

I had my audio book set up for a while and there was a deadline for the sample. The producer missed that deadline. I wanted to get it completed by the beginning of December, if possible. 

I contacted her and asked what happened. She took her time to reply and said I would get my sample by the beginning of the week. She missed that deadline too (this was a couple of weeks ago). I don’t know this person, I am assuming they are just someone that misses deadlines so I contacted the company and I terminated the contract. I contacted her saying I no longer need her services. I received a reply right away with an excuse.

I am assuming the company contacted her as well because she e-mailed me again stating there was an emergency. I had no idea, just a simple email could have solved this. Not to mention I have a deadline I would have liked to make but now this will be impossible.

Growing Pains…Is My Marketing Annoying You?

I get the feeling I am borderline bothering my readers and friends on social media (well, the ones that are friends on my groups). I am doing giveaways and adding the reader magnets from bookfunnel and prolificworks. 

In my emails, I upload videos and add links. I try Facebook Live to capture a larger audience without having to pay for advertising. I am doing my best to stay away from too much engagement, BUT when the giveaways on bookfunnel or prolific are controlled by others, I am at their mercy.

Sometimes these promotions don’t fit my genre, I don’t have a large enough list, or I have a topic that is inappropriate for their promotion. I could try to create my own promotion but quite honestly, I feel overwhelmed with my tasks now. I may attempt this at a later date.

I complete a video email to my small (but growing) contact list. As always, I add the links to the free reads. The next day, I receive an email stating the link will no longer be in service and they created a new link for the same promotion. Oh, no! Okay, I can deal.

I add this updated link to my Twitter (again), Facebook (again), and reply to the email and ask if the the old link will send my readers to the new one until it runs out. I can’t flood my reader list with mistakes and bother my social media all week. I look foolish enough without giving bad links. Please don’t help me add to the chaos.

Growing Pains…When Your Laptop Goes Kaput!

I am writing a Word document and it continues to tell me it’s not responding, the format keeps changing, and all this other crazy stuff is happening. I am not sure if I tried to fix it and ruined it or if the laptop demons were playing with my head again but I gave up.

Two days later, I attempted to use the internet ANOTHER time. I could not get on Google. Now I know my laptop was laughing at me. I called my younger brother. He did his best to help me. He even told me something I didn’t know about my laptop. Oh well, thanks Corey.

I felt as if it helped for a second but it that was it, one second. As soon as we hung up I was done. He lives too far away to really help me. I posted on Facebook that I was about to throw the thing out of my attic window. 

Considering my imagination and the situation, I had second thoughts. I visualized it bouncing back into my house and attacking me with viruses and HI messages all night. Not to mention, I felt a broken laptop is better than no laptop at all.

I received a message from a friend that saved the day! My neighbor told me not to toss it. She said her husband loves to play with tech stuff and would be happy to look at my laptop for me.

Growing Pains…Trying to Advance to the Next Level

I heard a great voice for the first book. The woman sent me a piece based on the script and I accepted. Then she turned me down. She stated she had other things and didn’t want to be spread so thin. Okay, fine with me but then don’t do the second audition. Even if there were other things wrong with the book don’t do it. I am sure there may be other issues if you read further. Possibly the language (I warned the producer), or the content. Maybe the writing isn’t her style. I don’t know but don’t start it, waste both of our time and then say no.

The second book was also in the auditions. I wanted to hear it in a male voice. I listened to a male audition and I loved him. His fifteen-minute piece sounded choppy, as if he stopped at each line, not pausing for a comma or period. It was strange. I gave feedback not sure if he has fixed it. How could someone be great for an audition then not know where a comma or period is in a simple book?

I am worried. I will find out soon enough.